♥♥♥♥♥
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
To all you girlies out there and especially MANGO fans,
The MANGO year end sale will officially start tomorrow~!!!!
Hurry and check out their bargains ;)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
OMG. PANIC ATTACK. kau kau.
DAMN stress, and my heart feels like it's gonna fall out of my chest.
And, I'm here. Haha. I cannot focus.
And I desperately need to focus and concentrate.
Let's hope I'll be able to do so for P2 later.
Please please please.
*crosses fingers*
Wish me luck~!
that's the way.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else...
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else...
-Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift.
found you
Friday, December 11, 2009
time to get something done right in my life.
one more time :)
and hopefully, you'll be with me.
unbreakable.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Marianas Trench - Beside You
When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
Where the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
I will stay.
Nobody will break you,
Trust in me, trust in me.
Don't pull away
Trust in me, trust in me.
I'm just trying to keep this together, because I could do worse and you could do better
Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Marianas Trench feat Kate Voegele - Good to you
I've been listening to it countless of times and am still loving it. Just listen and maybe you'll fall in love with it too. And I think they make a good collaboration. (:
To the happier times and hopefully many more to come.
Maybe everything is turning around for the better.
Thank you god.
good to me.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know. If you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side... is spectacular."
I'm ready. Emotionally. Definately. I'm gonna take all the chances I have and fall as far as I need and at the same time, reach as far as I can. The bigger the risk, the better the gain. The more I'll experience and the more I'll learn. Then I can truly love and maybe find love. Yes I will be vulnerable but this time, I am ready. And, tougher indeed.
I'm ready. Emotionally. Definately. I'm gonna take all the chances I have and fall as far as I need and at the same time, reach as far as I can. The bigger the risk, the better the gain. The more I'll experience and the more I'll learn. Then I can truly love and maybe find love. Yes I will be vulnerable but this time, I am ready. And, tougher indeed.
ungrateful
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I am helping you and you lash out at me. Good for you.
With the endless yelling and complaining and blaming-it's no doubt you're good at it.
But what good can you do with all that? I really wish someone will tell you off because I have no power to do so and have given up on you.
according to you
Monday, November 23, 2009
Listening to : Owl City-Fireflies
The crash studying period has started. Still going slow though.=( Less than 20 days to finals and 25 to holiiiidaaayyyyy. But now revising and cramming is of utmost importance and all the lazing around/dreaming/sleeping/goin out has really gotta stop.
I should go. Time to study like there's no tomorrow. You should to-unless you're already on break like the other 432856746359 people who's not in ACCA and have 4 mths break. Hmphhh!
so many pieces, all missing, for too long now.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
2 songs I'm so SO in love with:
Gaga-Bad Romance
note: wait till after the credits-Gaga's on the bed with a burnt skeleton. What can't Gaga do, seriously?
Haha. The first time I heard it; it really made no sense with the 'rarara' and 'oolala'. Then I watched the video clip-it was really funny to me though Gaga did look freakkyy in the bath tub looking all dolly. And now, the song was nothing more than addictive especially the rarara part. LOL. Plus did you notice how many product placements there were in the MV? So that's how artists of today are making money since everyone decided to stop buying cds and dload everything and anything. Good idea really.
and,
Rihanna- Russian Roulette.
This is just awesome. The music, the mv, the lyrics-and I'm still trying to understand the meaning of the song. And when Riri said she wanted to be dark, that's what we all got alright. Very intense and dark and and deeep and just intense. She really has stepped up.
And, guess who died in the end.
Ok, youtube's not allowing me to put the vid here so click here, k.
And I googled to find out the meaning behind the song, here's what Yahoo music came up with:
"The message in Rihanna's "Russian Roulette" is more complicated to interpret. I felt chills the first time I heard it. I wondered why the song is named after the dangerous game? Is it supposed to be an analogy for her tumultuous relationship with Chris?If so, why was it necessary to choose a metaphor this extreme?
The game of Russian Roulette involves inserting a single bullet into the chamber of a revolver, spinning the cylinder ... and pulling the trigger.
Before firing the gun, players hope that the cued up bullet chamber is empty.
Is Rihanna saying that her two-years with Chris was always just a click away from a tragic ending?
The "Russian Roulette" video feeds into the speculation, and is dramatic enough to star the likes of Sharon Stone and Angelina Jolie.
It opens with a scantily clad Rihanna lying on the floor. As she moves her hand, a small pool of blood is uncovered. The five red claw marks on the brick wall indicate a struggle. Rihanna's flashbacks intensify. They come faster and increasingly more disturbing, gruesome.
True to the song lyrics, the horrific game leaves Rihanna visibly troubled. She can't keep her composure. She is on the verge of a nervous breakdown, yet she continues to play along.
Rihanna comes apart as she faces the authority on the other side of the two-way mirror. She falls to her knees, worrisomely scratching her head, leaving her hair a mess.
As the video nears its close, the ill-fate finale unfolds.
There's just one final round of the haunting game, and the single gunshot heard at the end of the song scares Rihanna to death. The ending explains her predicament and her uneasy disposition. You feel her pain and wish her strength. If this is truly an analogy for her courtship with Chris, it's no wonder he is asking for forgiveness in "Crawl."
xoxo.
eat. pray. love.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
So, I've been feeling awfully unhealthy these past months. With absolutely NO exercise (seeing I stopped my gym membership), eating whatever and whenever and bumming around; it's really time I do something about it. I thought of running laps but then I just have that feeling that I won't push myself hard enough to get the results I want. So now I've got a new idea-yoga! Been there, done that-I so can do it all over again. This time more seriously. And maybe try pilates and I've got goals too :)
Which are poses like these:
Haha. I know-abit far fetched. But it's not impossible. So there; goals set. Check back with me in 2 years time. :)
Further, I may be able to regain the calmness I need with the overstressed life with studies and my family. So there, a getaway from reality.
Now to find a yoga class that meets my budget, etc. I've been checking out Beyoga. But it's in Damansara-kind of far for me but the place looks gorgeous and they've got all sorts of classes and dedicated teachers. Any other recommedations? I would really appreciate it.
(photos from http://yogaiswheremyheartis.blogspot.com/-feat. Ninie Ahmad)
bitter hypocrite
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I'm trying very very hard not to hate you. You should be the last person I'm supposed to hate. And frankly, I'm better than this-having to hate. But you're just being bitter. With so many life experiences and considering your age, I don't think you turned out great. You just went downhill and never bothered to climb up again. And to think I have you as my role model and my person to look up to. Many times, I wish otherwise.
You pick fights, you point out everything unnecessary and blame blame blame, you point out problems and more problems but never bother to resolve them. It's never anything positive with you. And I'm not exagerrating here ok. What's the point of all this? So that you can brood and self pity and regret over almost everything possible? I find that just utterly bitter. Why live like this? And the fact that you only point out my flaws and mistakes, no wonder you can't stand me-cause you never saw any achievements or good things I do. And your mistakes, etc-they just don't seem to exist ( according to you).
Imagine you are everything I don't want to be and restrain to be. What a great role model you turned out to be huh. And as a parent, you failed to guide, to motivate, to support, to understand and to teach. Other than providing the necessities, you did not put any effort in anything more.
You never bothered. Why should I?
honeyyy bee.
Monday, November 2, 2009
I am a honey bee,
shunned off from the colony
and they won't let me in
So I left the hive,
They took away all my straps
and broke off both my wings
So I'll find another tree
and make the wind my friend
I'll just sing with the birds
They'll tell me secrets of the world
But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn't wanna be
But my darling, honey bee
I'll come save you
Even if it means I'd have to face the queen
So I'll come prepared,
My new friends say they would help me
get my loved one back
They say it isn't right,
To be self control of your mind
but I choose not to believe that
So we'll meet in the darkness of the night,
and I promised I will be there all time
We'll be guided by my new friends, the butterflies,
bring us back to our own little hive
Oh my other honey bee,
No longer stuck where he doesn't want to be
Oh my darling, honey bee,
I have saved you
And now that you're with me,
we can make our own honey.
So so sweet (: I have to study but I can't seem to do that. I lack the motivation and the attention span. So if anyone has good studying methods, do tell. Sharing is caring.
xoxo.
fearless
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Listening to: Prime Circle-She Always Gets What She Wants
I really am glad I forgave and forgot.
I would be in a much better position today if you didn’t happen.
But I can’t ask for too much.
I get that things happen for a reason. And it already has so I can't undo that.
But I can change the outcome. Change my perspectives and emotions and myself. They’re all within my control.
And I have amended as much as I can so far. And I’m very sure I’m better off today with the fact that I learn to forgive.
I’ve read somewhere; you have to forgive the person who hurt you, no matter what he/she has done. Not for the opposite party but for yourself. Because when someone hurts you, they take power over you and if you don’t forgive them, you’re letting them keep that power.
coffee & cigarettes
This day finally came.
The day when I would find out how I would feel.
Now I know. And it isn't as bad.
No anger/hate-so that's good.
A part of me is glad. Another part is just nothing.
I feel nothing.
I’m just glad-for you, for me. It’s so much better than what I would have ever thought.
Good luck.
collide
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
It's been quite a while and there's no denying it.
Well, I've made up my mind.
And so be glad.
Coz I've decided to counter your direction.
Now you can make your move. ;)
care
Monday, October 5, 2009
Yes it does take two. I'm trying here but it seems like I'm going solo. So I'm giving up. Because for once I really want to yell at you but; you're not worth it anymore. I believe there's quite some things to fix between us. But it's all shadowed and left aside for so long it doesn't seem to matter. But they do. Maybe one day I'll step up to fix them. If I don't, then you know I gave up.
I'm putting on so many shows at once-today I wondered why, considered which ones are actually worth it and where my breaking point will be. Soon maybe. And, I realised there's all these emotions bottled up and released at all the wrong people. My mind's a whirlwind now.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
And I know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way;
And I miss you more than I should, than I thought I could,
I can't get my mind off of you.
(Joshua Radin-The Fear You Won't Fall)
left right front back. you me here there everywhere.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
How many times do we have to meet in one day?
Seriously I lost count.
But meeting on these bases don't really conclude anything.
Nor make our circumstance any better.
My mindset's against all the odds.
So nothing can dissapoint me at the end of the day.
how many times
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Seeing you in the distance.
Hearing your voice.
10 feet away and soon,
Side by side.
Time took longer to pass,
Yet I didn't dare look.
You bypassed sooner that I realised,
Only to discover your back was my last sight.
Only to discover your back was my last sight.
no more
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Trying to pretend its perfect,
wish that I could run away and hide
in someone else's life...
wish that I could run away and hide
in someone else's life...
(Jordin Sparks-Landmines)
close to tears.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
I'm stresssseeeddd up. FML seriously.
So many things going on and so much to do; I don't know how to cope.
I don't even wanna think about it. Nevertheless, I can't avoid it.
For now, I'll hook up with my beer and lappie till I feel better. :)
Hope you're having a much better week than me.
Hope you're having a much better week than me.
i'm not a princess. this ain't a fairytale.
Monday, August 31, 2009
It's become a daily routine. Thinking of you.
I did it so frequntly in the past it's grown on me.
And now it's a habit. One I've got to learn to stop.
Happy 52nd Merdeka Malaysia!
Independence has been ours for a long time now yet are we truly independent? I believe each and everyone of us have got our very own individual comments about that. :) And the picture is very clear but I doubt anything miraculous will happen in the near future. Whatever it is, I believe we should be glad that we're not starving or being bombed or running for our lives half the time or going through disasters every other day. Anyways, hopefully you had a good celebration however and wherever you celebrated merdeka. ;)
band aid
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I'm exhausted-and today was only my first class for the week. Sigh...Plus, I'm supposed to be revising for Progress Test next Fri which I found out on Monday. Totally slipped my mind. Now I have to cram kau kau. I don't even know where to start. Complain, complain, complain; sien rite-I know. I think it's time to start to NOT complain anymore. Trust me, one day I'll pick up the good habit. ;)
I feel like changing the skin of my blog. Tired of it. Though I'm probably the only one visiting this blog. :)
Okay. Shower and open my books. Maybe I'll start somewhere. You too. Quit procrastinating, you're gaining nothing!
Toodles. xoxo.
-focus less on YOU and me, and more on everything else.
click click
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Pixie Lott, who was recently here for the MTV World Stage-she's one singer you have to check out. Only 18 years old, pretty adorable and I have to admit; very talented. She was nicknamed Pixie by her mum coz she was tiny and cute as a baby and somewhat looked like a fairy. Anyways, her new album "Turn It Up"-named because she wants people to turn it up, turn the vibe up, turn everything up! Haha. It worked for me.
One more thing I found-Poladroid! *click* IT turns your pics into polaroids like how it would work in real life-now just virtually. You can actually see your pic 'develop' on your comp screen which I find pretty cool. Check it out seriously. It's pretty fun actually-watching it develop or you can shake it around to make the process faster. ;o) Have fun! Don't forget to right click to save your pic. One of the many pics I polaroid-ed!
(pic from mymilktoof.blogspot.com)
" Doesn't matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives, trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point.
All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us.
Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up. "
-Alex, Grey's Anatomy. Season 5.
head over heels
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Barely knowing you and I'm already smitten.
And somehow, I can't let you go.
stay strong
Monday, August 17, 2009
I'm blank right now. I've conquered my nerves. Or maybe I'm just too tired to care about it.
Results are out in 12 hours =/ A thousand thoughts run through my mind whenever i think "results".
And I have been thinking bout them in the past few months-I'm pretty numb to them now.
But all I can do now is pray HARD. Real hard and relax.
I am going to sleep soon. Coz my theory is that no matter how much you worry/not sleep/etc about IT, it has alreadly been decided and not sleeping can't change it, you know.
All in all; GOOD LUCK to all CAT and ACCA students~!
Friday, August 14, 2009
What if I told you I'd reconsider?
Am I too late?
Are you still here?
It never crossed my mind that I would ever reconsider. I guess things have changed.
However, what crosses my mind is that you probably deserve better and our time has passed.
Second chances don't always come around.
knock knock
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Dim sum brunch at the Eest at Westin last Sunday. It was all good considering you pay more than enough for the dishes they serve there. I didn't take many pics since I was concentrating more on the food. Here are some;
Classes start again today. But! today the lecturer decided to make us wait one hour foe her and then tell us class is cancelled coz she is sick. Like you don't know you were sick earlier? Seriously WTF. Go all the way to coll, wait for an hour and have no class. Serious waste of time. And guess what-replacement's tomorrow from 5.30PM to 9.30PM. I hate her already.
So finally we went to catch 'The Proposal'. I'll review it later. Generally romantic comedy, duh.
I'm gonna study now seeing I 'holiday' more than ever everyday.
See ya!
Oh and guys, you should check this out:
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Shit. My dad has fever right now. And it's probably because he was at some talk with a guy who was really sick and sneezing sitting behind him. And he didn't change seats coz it was considered rude considering he knew the guy. Therefore, he could possibly have H1N1 now. I'm so so so screwed.
I'm wearing my mask now. And praying hard it's not H1N1. :(
Isn't that just pure adorable??? It's your very own "little pony". Stumbled upon it on dlisted.com. It's Koda! Apparently it's a dwarf pony-only 23 inches tall and is pretty much the size of a cat. His size is due to some sickness and still faces medical problems with his legs and stuff. But nevertheless, he's a strong one and still hanging out there. :)
Toodles!
Have a great Sunday~! ;)
quiet things no one knows
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
And unexpectedly, I am gonna miss you when you leave. I'm gonna miss how comfortable things have become between us, how I can confide in you for almost anything and the fact that you make feel good and have been nothing more but encouraging. I don't know think I have the same effect on you. And maybe I've probably not been the best person you have known. But you are one of and I'm sorry for the past that I put you through.
The only problem is I can't tell you this.
1,2,3,4....
Monday, July 20, 2009
Sorry for the lack of updates for such a long time.
But don’t fret! I’m getting started again. :) so do drop by alright.
xoxo.
wrong place, wrong time.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Can it be too late?
Too late to change?
Too late because I've beeen lingering in the current for so long I can hardly remember the before.
That now has become my default. And I've gone so far I've forgotten who I was.
Even a fraction of it is so hard to find.
And things don't just bounce back to what they were.
Then what do you do?
What am I gonna do?
no surprise
Thursday, June 18, 2009
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
....If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why
Most times, I wish it was otherwise. It shouldn't have been the harder way out.
if you could see me now
Monday, April 13, 2009
My comp's dead. Thanks to me and the lightning.
Dad's not sending it for fixing just yet. My so called "punishment". So no blogging till I get it fixed? That I have no idea when either. :( :( :( :( :( :(
Mock's coming up. I'll be studying ALOT this week. =/ =/ =/
See ya!
hiding my heart.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Grey’s Anatomy is food for my soul. Love love love!
Amazingly for 2 weeks in a row, both Fridays have been crap. Just the crappiest it can be. It’s like a black Friday or something. Now I’m really paranoid bout the next Friday that follows. =S
I'm gonna go try to study Audit now. Hope I don't sleep on it. There's never a time I don't. Haha.
Toodles!
these bullets go through me
I wana say that things have gotten better. In reality, they haven’t. Unless; you choose to live in denial. Things have cooled but it all remains broken. Sometimes, it just is too late. And being hard headed doesn’t help. But I’ve gotten used to it. You’ve got to if you want to move on. So here I am moving on again.
I realize these few years have been a lot about accepting, trying, forgiving, fighting, and moving on. I'm desperate for a break.
it's all broken. beyond repair.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Fuck. I officially HATE coming home.
Fuck you.
I really liked home. Now every moment is just hatred, disagreements and sorrow.
Thanks to you.
You hate my attitude. Well, I act like that because I have to face someone like you.
Sometimes I don't even know whom I've become.,
When I think about it, all I think is you.
When I don't do things your way, I get yelled at.
And when I try to do things your way, I get yelled at the same.
What the fuck is wrong with you?
What the fuck is wrong with you?
It's so fucking tiring. Coming home & seeing you is like heading to a war zone.
You gotta get prepped with all your weapons and be accompanied by courage.
Like what the heck?
Why do you like to waste your energy on things like this?
You're just wasting your life. And you have to pull me in with you.
I'm not your emotional punching bag. Damn it.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
...And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget.
-snippets from 'Don't Forget-Demi Lovato'.
I don't hope that you have forgotten.
I know I won't.
But; leaving the past behind.
That, you've got to agree with me that it's long overdue.
Don't just say it. Mean it.
You have to.
This way, you can move on. The right way that is.
It's gotta start somewhere, somehow.
Too many relapses.
I'll try again.
Let go. It'll help.
don't forget.
Isn't this just prettyyyy? From Forever 21. Imagine it in white. I can't seem to get the picture of the white one. I'll prob go check it out tomorrow and see if it's worth buying. :)
Ok. I'm bored. I'm in Monash and the Bestie's not done studying so I'm waiting for her to be done. Hence, the blogging. Kree's here too! Been a while since I've met her. and she's so luck to have been in the States for 3 months for a 'work exchange prog'? Something like that-Where you go there to work but also get to travel around the States. So cool.
Tomorrow after class!! Love love!
More: click here
look beyond
Saturday, March 21, 2009
cuz thoughts of you hang just like pictures
and gather dust over the time
we hung them up just like real lovers
and drove our nails into the wall
cuz we thought they'd be there forever
but we weren't permanent at all.
and gather dust over the time
we hung them up just like real lovers
and drove our nails into the wall
cuz we thought they'd be there forever
but we weren't permanent at all.
tip of my tongue
PT2’s over and done with. Though I still still have Audit to go. Long story. Something I’m not proud of and I don’t plan to repeat it. But I’ll be doing it on Tues.
So after exams yesterday, we went to the Bazaar at 3K Inn to be early birds. I somehow just can’t get stuff. But the bestie had a listt and did get some stuff! Sorry I was so impatient-lack of sleep thus the crankiness.
Then dinner at Ole-Ole Bali yesterday @ Solaris. The environment was better than the food. Haha. So the environment compensated for the food, agree? Anyways, Solaris is much better place compared to a few months back. With eateries like Michelangelo (my all time fav), Tenji, some bars here and there; it’s a pretty good hang out place. There’s also this place-Boston. Kind of in between a ‘club n restaurant’. Check it out sometime!
For the next few weeks, it’s gonna be crucial :(- I’ve to think hard about the papers I want to take. I feel like dropping one paper. I’m not coping well and all this studying is becoming really sickening. Let’s put it this way; if you are going to undertake something-let it be your best. If not; to me there’s not much a point to it. So I would have to figure out all the pros n cons and ask 21386837 people’s opinions. Let’s hope I make the right decision.
On another note, I’m proud owner of a new bakery! Haha. Ok my dad’s a shareholder. So I should be considered as a 'part' owner of a bakery right? ;) It’s my cousin’s dream and my dad pitched in. It’s opening soon! And it’s called Bienestar Cottage. :)
It’s as simple as a flick of the switch. Join the Earth Hour 2009.
Turn off your lights on Saturday, 28 March 2009 at 8.30pm for an hour.
Make a difference.
Make a difference.
When a heart breaks;
It doesn’t break even.
Someone’s always left with a smaller piece.
-The Script.
Effin love them!
This time my updates are on time! Yay!
See ya around soon!
Have a great weekend! xoxo
