anonymous
Monday, March 29, 2010
coincidences that passes every now and then.one day it'll run out.
like how there's an end to everything.
yes, there'll be regret.
and i really want to do something.
but there are always 'but's.
that's my problem.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
It's more than a crack in the wall
It's a whole lot bigger than we thought, yeah
It's a whole lot bigger than we thought, yeah
A hammer and nail won't fix it this time
So bring on the wrecking ball
It's like we've been drifting along
Pretending like nothing's wrong, yeah
We play the game, keep up the charade
But when the river runs dry we're on different sides
You wait for rain and i chase the storm
We just don't see it the same way
You say you want change but you're never sure
We can't go on like this anymore
Cause at the end of the day
You wait for rain and i chase the storm
gotta figure this out.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Listening to: Amanda Seyfried-Little House
All the studying is over. All the tests have followed. And now the holidays have come. I've got 12 days. And yes, I counted ;) 12 days to cherish with family and friends, and to vacation and to party before I start classes again and have to face my exam results. Sigh Sigh Sigh. Remind to self-pray during the 12 days. And results are out on the first day of classes. How convenient.
I have been neglecting my blog. Well, it's pretty obvious I'm not an avid blogger. So please try to understand.
Chinese New Year's closing in. Before that would be a whole lot of spring cleaning( yes, I do clean wtf), munching on cookies and keropok hoping not to get sick by cny, last minute shopping, welcoming the S'pore relatives, etc etc. Then the yearly tradition starts- reunion dinner, angpows, gambling, visiting; you know the drill. The exception this year-V Day! in which I will be celebrating with a reunion dinner. No date this year.
Chinese New Year's closing in. Before that would be a whole lot of spring cleaning( yes, I do clean wtf), munching on cookies and keropok hoping not to get sick by cny, last minute shopping, welcoming the S'pore relatives, etc etc. Then the yearly tradition starts- reunion dinner, angpows, gambling, visiting; you know the drill. The exception this year-V Day! in which I will be celebrating with a reunion dinner. No date this year.
I have been doing a fair share of reading too. Believe it or not, it's in my resolutions list to read (first time ever writing the list) and to read x number of books by the end of the year. Lol I know. But I used to take a year to read a book. So yea not so lol anymore. Currently, my reads are;
Both very good books. And even though I have watched My Sister's Keeper and did cry ;( , the book's still worth a read. And you know the book's always better than the movie. So I'm gonna appreciate it. I'll review them once I'm done with them.
Some quotes from Eat, Pray, Love.-
"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert
Every page in the book is just so well written. I'll be back with more. :)
Til then, have a great week ahead. Those driving to balik kampung-do drive safely, you do want to reach your destination in one piece with family intact and all.
See ya soon~! xoxo.
two as one.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
This time; it's real.
How small can this world be-I don't think you know.
My feelings are a mix of disappointment and neutrality.
It is bound to happen some day.
And it has been long enough.
All the best.
i look at you and you look back at me.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Turn around to look at you, you're nowhere to be found,
I search the place for your lost face, guess I'll have another round;
I search the place for your lost face, guess I'll have another round;
And I think that I just fell in love with you.
Too many chances. And all backfires. And the one million thoughts I have of you don't get lesser by the day. How long more will we take before everything explodes or stretch too far that we give up on it all?
♥♥♥♥♥
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
To all you girlies out there and especially MANGO fans,
The MANGO year end sale will officially start tomorrow~!!!!
Hurry and check out their bargains ;)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
OMG. PANIC ATTACK. kau kau.
DAMN stress, and my heart feels like it's gonna fall out of my chest.
And, I'm here. Haha. I cannot focus.
And I desperately need to focus and concentrate.
Let's hope I'll be able to do so for P2 later.
Please please please.
*crosses fingers*
Wish me luck~!
that's the way.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else...
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else...
-Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift.
found you
Friday, December 11, 2009
time to get something done right in my life.
one more time :)
and hopefully, you'll be with me.
unbreakable.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Marianas Trench - Beside You
When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
Where the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
I will stay.
Nobody will break you,
Trust in me, trust in me.
Don't pull away
Trust in me, trust in me.
I'm just trying to keep this together, because I could do worse and you could do better
Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Marianas Trench feat Kate Voegele - Good to you
I've been listening to it countless of times and am still loving it. Just listen and maybe you'll fall in love with it too. And I think they make a good collaboration. (:
To the happier times and hopefully many more to come.
Maybe everything is turning around for the better.
Thank you god.
good to me.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know. If you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side... is spectacular."
I'm ready. Emotionally. Definately. I'm gonna take all the chances I have and fall as far as I need and at the same time, reach as far as I can. The bigger the risk, the better the gain. The more I'll experience and the more I'll learn. Then I can truly love and maybe find love. Yes I will be vulnerable but this time, I am ready. And, tougher indeed.
I'm ready. Emotionally. Definately. I'm gonna take all the chances I have and fall as far as I need and at the same time, reach as far as I can. The bigger the risk, the better the gain. The more I'll experience and the more I'll learn. Then I can truly love and maybe find love. Yes I will be vulnerable but this time, I am ready. And, tougher indeed.
ungrateful
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I am helping you and you lash out at me. Good for you.
With the endless yelling and complaining and blaming-it's no doubt you're good at it.
But what good can you do with all that? I really wish someone will tell you off because I have no power to do so and have given up on you.
according to you
Monday, November 23, 2009
Listening to : Owl City-Fireflies
The crash studying period has started. Still going slow though.=( Less than 20 days to finals and 25 to holiiiidaaayyyyy. But now revising and cramming is of utmost importance and all the lazing around/dreaming/sleeping/goin out has really gotta stop.
I should go. Time to study like there's no tomorrow. You should to-unless you're already on break like the other 432856746359 people who's not in ACCA and have 4 mths break. Hmphhh!
so many pieces, all missing, for too long now.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
2 songs I'm so SO in love with:
Gaga-Bad Romance
note: wait till after the credits-Gaga's on the bed with a burnt skeleton. What can't Gaga do, seriously?
Haha. The first time I heard it; it really made no sense with the 'rarara' and 'oolala'. Then I watched the video clip-it was really funny to me though Gaga did look freakkyy in the bath tub looking all dolly. And now, the song was nothing more than addictive especially the rarara part. LOL. Plus did you notice how many product placements there were in the MV? So that's how artists of today are making money since everyone decided to stop buying cds and dload everything and anything. Good idea really.
and,
Rihanna- Russian Roulette.
This is just awesome. The music, the mv, the lyrics-and I'm still trying to understand the meaning of the song. And when Riri said she wanted to be dark, that's what we all got alright. Very intense and dark and and deeep and just intense. She really has stepped up.
And, guess who died in the end.
Ok, youtube's not allowing me to put the vid here so click here, k.
And I googled to find out the meaning behind the song, here's what Yahoo music came up with:
"The message in Rihanna's "Russian Roulette" is more complicated to interpret. I felt chills the first time I heard it. I wondered why the song is named after the dangerous game? Is it supposed to be an analogy for her tumultuous relationship with Chris?If so, why was it necessary to choose a metaphor this extreme?
The game of Russian Roulette involves inserting a single bullet into the chamber of a revolver, spinning the cylinder ... and pulling the trigger.
Before firing the gun, players hope that the cued up bullet chamber is empty.
Is Rihanna saying that her two-years with Chris was always just a click away from a tragic ending?
The "Russian Roulette" video feeds into the speculation, and is dramatic enough to star the likes of Sharon Stone and Angelina Jolie.
It opens with a scantily clad Rihanna lying on the floor. As she moves her hand, a small pool of blood is uncovered. The five red claw marks on the brick wall indicate a struggle. Rihanna's flashbacks intensify. They come faster and increasingly more disturbing, gruesome.
True to the song lyrics, the horrific game leaves Rihanna visibly troubled. She can't keep her composure. She is on the verge of a nervous breakdown, yet she continues to play along.
Rihanna comes apart as she faces the authority on the other side of the two-way mirror. She falls to her knees, worrisomely scratching her head, leaving her hair a mess.
As the video nears its close, the ill-fate finale unfolds.
There's just one final round of the haunting game, and the single gunshot heard at the end of the song scares Rihanna to death. The ending explains her predicament and her uneasy disposition. You feel her pain and wish her strength. If this is truly an analogy for her courtship with Chris, it's no wonder he is asking for forgiveness in "Crawl."
xoxo.
eat. pray. love.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
So, I've been feeling awfully unhealthy these past months. With absolutely NO exercise (seeing I stopped my gym membership), eating whatever and whenever and bumming around; it's really time I do something about it. I thought of running laps but then I just have that feeling that I won't push myself hard enough to get the results I want. So now I've got a new idea-yoga! Been there, done that-I so can do it all over again. This time more seriously. And maybe try pilates and I've got goals too :)
Which are poses like these:
Haha. I know-abit far fetched. But it's not impossible. So there; goals set. Check back with me in 2 years time. :)
Further, I may be able to regain the calmness I need with the overstressed life with studies and my family. So there, a getaway from reality.
Now to find a yoga class that meets my budget, etc. I've been checking out Beyoga. But it's in Damansara-kind of far for me but the place looks gorgeous and they've got all sorts of classes and dedicated teachers. Any other recommedations? I would really appreciate it.
(photos from http://yogaiswheremyheartis.blogspot.com/-feat. Ninie Ahmad)
bitter hypocrite
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I'm trying very very hard not to hate you. You should be the last person I'm supposed to hate. And frankly, I'm better than this-having to hate. But you're just being bitter. With so many life experiences and considering your age, I don't think you turned out great. You just went downhill and never bothered to climb up again. And to think I have you as my role model and my person to look up to. Many times, I wish otherwise.
You pick fights, you point out everything unnecessary and blame blame blame, you point out problems and more problems but never bother to resolve them. It's never anything positive with you. And I'm not exagerrating here ok. What's the point of all this? So that you can brood and self pity and regret over almost everything possible? I find that just utterly bitter. Why live like this? And the fact that you only point out my flaws and mistakes, no wonder you can't stand me-cause you never saw any achievements or good things I do. And your mistakes, etc-they just don't seem to exist ( according to you).
Imagine you are everything I don't want to be and restrain to be. What a great role model you turned out to be huh. And as a parent, you failed to guide, to motivate, to support, to understand and to teach. Other than providing the necessities, you did not put any effort in anything more.
You never bothered. Why should I?
honeyyy bee.
Monday, November 2, 2009
I am a honey bee,
shunned off from the colony
and they won't let me in
So I left the hive,
They took away all my straps
and broke off both my wings
So I'll find another tree
and make the wind my friend
I'll just sing with the birds
They'll tell me secrets of the world
But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn't wanna be
But my darling, honey bee
I'll come save you
Even if it means I'd have to face the queen
So I'll come prepared,
My new friends say they would help me
get my loved one back
They say it isn't right,
To be self control of your mind
but I choose not to believe that
So we'll meet in the darkness of the night,
and I promised I will be there all time
We'll be guided by my new friends, the butterflies,
bring us back to our own little hive
Oh my other honey bee,
No longer stuck where he doesn't want to be
Oh my darling, honey bee,
I have saved you
And now that you're with me,
we can make our own honey.
So so sweet (: I have to study but I can't seem to do that. I lack the motivation and the attention span. So if anyone has good studying methods, do tell. Sharing is caring.
xoxo.
