if you could see me now  

Monday, April 13, 2009

My comp's dead. Thanks to me and the lightning.
Dad's not sending it for fixing just yet. My so called "punishment". So no blogging till I get it fixed? That I have no idea when either. :( :( :( :( :( :(

Mock's coming up. I'll be studying ALOT this week. =/ =/ =/

See ya!

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hiding my heart.  

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Grey’s Anatomy is food for my soul. Love love love!


Amazingly for 2 weeks in a row, both Fridays have been crap. Just the crappiest it can be. It’s like a black Friday or something. Now I’m really paranoid bout the next Friday that follows. =S

I'm gonna go try to study Audit now. Hope I don't sleep on it. There's never a time I don't. Haha.

Toodles!

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these bullets go through me  


I wana say that things have gotten better. In reality, they haven’t. Unless; you choose to live in denial. Things have cooled but it all remains broken. Sometimes, it just is too late. And being hard headed doesn’t help. But I’ve gotten used to it. You’ve got to if you want to move on. So here I am moving on again.

I realize these few years have been a lot about accepting, trying, forgiving, fighting, and moving on. I'm desperate for a break.

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Sunday, March 29, 2009



cry under the rain.
this way no one will know.

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it's all broken. beyond repair.  

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Fuck. I officially HATE coming home.
Fuck you.

I really liked home. Now every moment is just hatred, disagreements and sorrow.
Thanks to you.
You hate my attitude. Well, I act like that because I have to face someone like you.
Sometimes I don't even know whom I've become., 
When I think about it, all I think is you. 

When I don't do things your way, I get yelled at.
And when I try to do things your way, I get yelled at the same.
What the fuck is wrong with you? 

It's so fucking tiring. Coming home & seeing you is like heading to a war zone.
You gotta get prepped with all your weapons and be accompanied by courage.
Like what the heck?
Why do you like to waste your energy on things like this?
You're just wasting your life. And you have to pull me in with you.

I'm not your emotional punching bag. Damn it. 

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?

...And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget. 

-snippets from 'Don't Forget-Demi Lovato'. 




I don't hope that you have forgotten.
I know I won't.

But; leaving the past behind.
That, you've got to agree with me that it's long overdue.
Don't just say it. Mean it. 
You have to. 
This way, you can move on. The right way that is.

It's gotta start somewhere, somehow. 
Too many relapses.
I'll try again.
Let go. It'll help.  

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don't forget.  

 
Isn't this just prettyyyy? From Forever 21. Imagine it in white. I can't seem to get the picture of the white one. I'll prob go check it out tomorrow and see if it's worth buying. :)

Ok. I'm bored. I'm in Monash and the Bestie's not done studying so I'm waiting for her to be done. Hence, the blogging. Kree's here too! Been a while since I've met her. and she's so luck to have been in the States for 3 months for a 'work exchange prog'? Something like that-Where you go there to work but also get to travel around the States. So cool. 

 
Tomorrow after class!! Love love!






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