Persevere
Thursday, March 19, 2009
2 more hours to exam.
I give up.
Audit is such a P.A.I.N.
I wanna go shopping. =(
I wanna go shopping. =(
save you.
Monday, March 9, 2009
It was mostly lies and immaturity.
Something I’ll probably never forget. But surely something not to hold on to.
I’ve learnt to let go. You should too.
"Often times we say goodbye to the person we love, without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them or we’ve stopped caring. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you’re free from any pain, but your hands are empty.
A heart breaking isn’t always as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling. And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you."
-Anonymous
you're one step ahead. time for me to take that step and leave you in my past.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
It’s been LONG since I had a decent post. A lot has happened since my Aussie trip and I did everything else except blog. It’s losing its significance; I have to admit. Now, sitting by my desk & curled up in my comforter, I’m trying to reminisce as much as I can so that I actually have blogging material to show you people.
Ok. I can’t find the cable for my hard disk. So I’ve got no pictures to show you.
Let’s just talk about recent things alright. My results came on Mon. Scarry shit. I actually left class early and went over to Rach’s to wait for results on her super slow comp. But we got it anyways & I passed all. Last sem’s impact is much bigger. There’s so many who failed 1/2/3 papers. SUckkkyy…
Uni’s becoming a bore. Very monotonous and nerdy =/ and I’m trying my best to keep up.
I’m blank. I’ll just type random stuffs alrite.
-my bestie walked all the way to my house coz apparently she was 'running away' from home. 40 minutes to my place at 11 at night. O.o
-I’ve went over over over my spending limit in Sydney so now I can’t buy stuffs. Its like not allowed. But I still senak some stuffs now n then. SIGH…
-For my progress tests, I slept probably 4 hours each night for 3 or 4 days and till now -----I’m still sleep deprived. I never had the chance to sleep for 12 hrs straight yet. :) coz somehow something will just get in the way.
-I wanna travel around the world.
-I wanna quit my course and do sth else like psychology. It was something I considered alongside actuarial science and did neither. And ended up in this crazy crash course which is a son of a bitch to people who have short attention spans like me. Kind of a bit too late to regret now.
-I use this lotion which I got from aus which is actually made from goat’s placenta. Gross; I know. I was reluctant to use it at first but I kinda love it right now…it does make your skin smoother and I’m obsessed with my skin. :P
-It’s raining right now. Therefore a very good time to be sleeping. And if you were sleeping right now, good for you!
-Did you hear about the 13 yr old boy who had a baby with his 15 yr old gf? And he said that he will take good care of the kid. I kinda doubt that. He can’t fully take care of himself and now he has to care for a baby. I wish the baby luck.
-Bride Wars was actually nice to watch & I cried. Haha. Watch it with your best friend if you haven’t watched it. It’ll mean more. ;)
-I need more clothes! Ugh..
-I’ll tell you a secret that I just realized. I tend to lean over to guys who are taken. I’m sorry, I really don’t mean to. But I’m not boyfriend-stealing alright. & I'm trying to fix it.
I should try to sleep. Make better use of my time. Don’t know when my next post will be seeing how lazy I’ve become! Haha. Toodles! Have a great week ahead!
xoxo.
we're fighting this war when both of us are losing
Sunday, February 15, 2009
When u fail to reach out,
fail to even try.
And it's not because you don't want to
but because he isn't letting you.
there's nothing much you can do.
you tried your best.
he made a decision all on his OWN.
selfish indeed.
But it's done.
you spend every waking minute hoping it'll be undone.
hope for something to change.
but every minute that passes shows how much more it won't.
Even if i wanted to fix this,
I'm not given a way to.
it's the end.
It's not me, it's you.
where do i go?
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Don’t fret! I’m doing just fine & I’ll update soon. :)
Gotta head to the airport now. Toodles.
this is not goodbye.
Monday, December 29, 2008
I'm leaving for home tomorrow. This sucks. I don't wanna go home. I'm gonna miss this place. SIGH.
Actually Ill reach Spore first; then reac'h KL on New Years. SIGH. I don't want to go home, don't want to start college, don't want to meet some people, don't want to pick up where i left off, don't want the stressful lifestyle back home, don't want to face reality. I don't!
SIGHHHHHH....
I have decided to migrate here in future. :)
turn the ashes into flames. it's all only just begun.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Finally, it’s Christmas and soon 2008 will come to an end. Pretty quick how it all flies by. Another year to conquer and another year to add to our memories; good and bad. 2008 wasn’t particularly memorable or impeccable; it was just any other year. Yea there were the good and bad times but all in moderation. And yes there were things which I would want to change, mend, re-do, fix, anything just to change it. But we know it’s almost impossible to. And there were the wishes and resolutions that never made it & which were never fulfilled. I’m good at complaining aren’t I? Just doing some reflecting on 2008 and it’s human nature to focus on the negative things. Not like I’ve forgot about the better. It’s close to heart, no worries.
…..moving on. She was right. I wanted to change you into someone who you weren’t. people say a leopard doesn’t change its spots. I never believed in it fully. I still don’t, even after you. The story’s getting old. I’m just tired. Too much time wasted on this. I’m trying to get up and move on but it’s not as easy as it seems. I don’t know where to start and the road can get lonely at times. I try to be brave and endure all that passes by but it’s tough alright. I’m trying to pick up the million and one shattered pieces but it’s everywhere. I’m very very lost.
I'm not hurt, really. That part's long gone. I just want to move on. It’s not that I don’t want to. I’m really trying. I want to. But something’s preventing me. I don’t know what. I’ve tried to fight it. So many times. Too many to count. I’ve picked up after myself countless times. But it’s never the same. I’m finding for my old self. The one deep down buried inside of me.
I’m afraid that might never happen. And that's when I'll lose my way. That’s the scary part. I don’t know when all this will end.
Ok. Pretty pointless post. Just needed to express myself. It’s okay if you don’t get it.
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Time to get sleep. Boxing day tomorrow. Shopping centres open as early as 5am. O.o i know. Shopping and to the beach tomorrow. Hope you peeps had a good xmas. I'll blog soon with pics.
xoxo.
